Down

I've been down the last few days. I want so much out of life not sure how I can achieve my dreams. I've been hiding this from everyone who I know. People see a happy go lucky person on the outside, but on the inside I feel like I'm torn.

Sometimes I think I look at life vicariously, wishing to be other people not seeing or being the real me. I feel lost at the moment. Being there all time for others and not taking care of self. Oh, I do try to take care of myself but I need to say no sometimes to wishes of other folks.