Wake Me Up When September Ends

"Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
wake me up when september ends

like my fathers come to passs
even years has gone so fast
wake me up when september ends

here comes the rain again
falling from the stars
drenched in my pain again
becoming who we are
as my memory rests
but never forgets what I lost

wake me up when september ends
summer has come and passed
the innocent can never last
wake me up when september ends

ring out the bells again
like we did when spring began
wake me up when September ends

here comes the rain again
falling from the stars
drenched in my pain again
becoming who we are

as my memory rests
but never forgets what I lost
wake me up when September ends

Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
wake me up when September ends
like my father's come to pass
twenty years has gone so fast

wake me up when September ends
wake me up when September ends
wake me up when September ends"

Greenday

Well tomorrow will be my three anniversary of when I found out I was positive. I've been trying to strive to keep up my health and learn how to live again. So many of us in this life walk with blinders not appreciating what we have in life.

Like so many other people, I have my days where I just want to crawl in bed hiding from this world. I know I'll have my good and bad days but they aren't nearly as bad as three years ago at this time. Most of you know my story of how I found out I was positive. If you don't I have a link to it on my side bar and my page on MySpace.

Some how going threw the traumatic experiences I have the last few years, I've still managed to keep my sense of humor. Three years ago I didn't want to wake up till September ended and the months after also ended.

This year September wasn't an all that great month. I've had a little bit of health issues and there is issues at work that need to be handled. Most of the issues at work are not in my hands but I still can voice my opinion.

I'm no angel or saint. I'm striving to be the best person I can living with HIV/AIDS. One of the things I love about myself now is I let the inner wild child out a lot of times. I'm not afraid to have fun or what others think of me even times I might get pissed at their attitudes, perception, and beliefs in who I am as a person. I have to be myself and deal with all that is, no matter how they perceive me.

Wake me up when September ends? Sure times I feel like that way. We all have our bad periods in life. Mine just always seems to start in the month of September. Believe or not I giggled to myself writing that line.

It's been a long up hill struggle the last three years. Keeping up my CD4 cells up and my viral load down trying to survive in this big grand world. I still have hopes, dreams, wants and desires like every other person. I want to be happy and still have the American Dream even if I'm living with HIV/AIDS.