I find myself to be be moody right now. With having seen Ms. Sizzle for one of the last times for awhile at her going away party at the org. Thinking on what to due about my computer problems and still try to make the bills and rent. Find that my muse for writing seems to be stained at the moment and not really knowing when how long it will take me awhile to catch up on everyones lives.
I really feel like I left down GG this month with the HIV blog. Not writing a story and us not getting any stories from the website. That Juan today told me that he still hasn't filled out the questionair about Cuba yet for the site due to other commitments. It's just that my emotions are running very deep right now.
I am learning that I use this blog as a diary in which before this past October, I never would have never dreamed in doing. I feel like I am negelicting my readers due to the amount of time I am able to be on a computer and not having time to read your blogs.
Tonight I feel like I need an escapism. Just to get away from everything for a few days. I can always blame it on the meds but I don't think tonight is one of them. You see everytime we go threw moods like the one I am having tonight, we think of people, places, and things from our past that we couldn't remember for years.
Meloncally is a great way to discribe my mood. For the past few weeks I have really noticed one of the side effects of the meds. It is what is known as fat redistribution. The checks on my face are caving in and the fat is going to different areas of my body. Like under my chin and to my sides. I was told this would happen but I guess really wasn't ready for this so soon. If you look at the picture you can see why you very rarely see a profile shot of me on this blog.